Body image : History + Postpartum

I don’t know if it’s a genetic trait or simply a gender thing… But I‘ve always been pretty sensitive and aware of my body image since I was about 17. Around that time, I moved to Daytona beach and gained about 35 pounds in the span of 6 months. There were many contributing factors to the weight gain but it really affected the way I viewed myself. I was disappointed. Embarrassed. And a little ashamed of how poorly I had taken care of myself. I took drastic and extreme measures to get my weight down, and was successful at the expense of my health and well-being. 

My weight went from 115lbs to 143lbs to 90lbs. I had gone from “overweight” to “underweight” in a year. At age 20 is when I started being intentional about getting healthy and improving my quality of life.  I got my first gym membership, began eating food that wasn’t from a drive thru, and learned to enjoy taking care of the body I was given for the sake of my future. 

Over the past 8 years, Robbie and I have made our healthy lifestyle a huge priority in our lives. Exercising not only makes me feel good about the way I look, but it also reduces my anxiety & insomnia, and improves my attitude and outlook on life. Win win! I also stopped judging my fitness success based on my scale and started using the mirror instead.  

When I found out I was pregnant I was still working out. But when the nausea and fatigue hit in the middle of my first trimester, the last thing I wanted to do was go to the gym at 6am before work when I could sleep until 7am. This slowed my momentum (no surprise) and by the time the nausea had subsided in my second trimester, I was already out of the rhythm and stopped showing up. I don’t regret not going to the gym religiously while pregnant because I needed to slow down and knowing me I wouldn’t have. During my pregnancy I gained 42lbs. I don’t feel like i overindulged in anything and kept the same diet as before. My body needed to gain that much for Hazel and I’m totally ok with that. 

Right now I’m 7 weeks postpartum and have lost 27lbs from birthing, my relatively clean diet and breastfeeding. My stomach looks different. I have stretch marks on my sides and I have more cellulite now than I started out with. But all of those things had to happen to bring Hazel into this world. She’s totally worth it. 

All of that to say, I’m super grateful for what my body has gone through. But now it’s time for me to get back into the rhythm of working out! 😊 I’ve been listening to my body the past 7 weeks and didn’t want to start too soon but now I feel ready. 

Tomorrow I’m starting Jillian Michael’s 90 body revolution!! I’m super pumped  to get back into shape and feel better physically, and mentally. I’m looking forward to being able to wear my jeans and shorts again and to ditch the maternity leggings that i wear every single day. I want to be a good role model for my daughter on what it looks like to take care of yourself. I’ll be using the scale as a guide to see if this exercise regimen is working, but I won’t be a slave to it. I plan to weigh once a week and post progress of my journey as a motivational tool. 

Tomorrow is day 1. 

Success is peace of mind which is a direct result of self-satisfaction in knowing you did your best to become the best you are capable of becoming.

John Wooden